February 2012
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it’s these possibilities that are agonizing, the only coping mechanism that is a vital tool to dealing with this, is the strong grip on reality i hold. under most circumstances i regard my disposition as forward and strong, but in unfamiliar territory, i find a faux surface of my own character bubbling over. it is inevitable that i will leave and find structures of comfort and hope. however,...
delta lambda idc
so yesterday i went to two rush events, liked one, didn’t like the other. Today I pictured myself in the frat, I could sorta, but i feel like I wouldn’t really be myself if i did. tonight i have a 3rd event and I’m gonna see how it goes even though i feel like shit, and i’m not wholly into it, but we will see what happens. wish me luck.
“ralph wept for the end of innocence”
– Lord of the Flies
Watchkatushah:
Coldplay - Fix You
one of those songs i will always play and reblog
“If only we’d stop trying to be happy we could have a pretty good time.”
– Edith Wharton
voicemails...
at a really awkward crossroad
i’m at a really terrible place right now. On the one hand i love my friends here and i’m really enjoying the company, but i can’t wait to just leave, i feel like i’m pushing my self to do all these enjoyable things, and when i don’t do something, i make myself feel like shit like it’s my fault its not participating or that i’m being antisocial. but...
woke up this morning to...
the realization i got a full 8 hours of sleep
an email from my 9:05 professor saying class was cancelled
the actual energy to go for a nice run
and the desire to eat breakfast…
so far today ain’t bad.
thought i try yes i try i may push and i scream vacancy feelings grip unwaiveringly at my seams
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